OH IT'S FRIDAY
Oh it's Friday, and I feel like it's going to be the most boring Friday i will have, why? Because my internet had expired, cause I'm just availing 3 months unlimited and since it's half of the month prior to salary I had decided to wait for it instead. Well I already informed my friends and they are all telling me that I must avail again. Because we will lost communications to our talks (secret talks) lol!.
So how's my weekend so far here in Saudi? Well it's always the usual things... Before I always woke up like 10 am in the morning and never take breakfast but lunch instead, I don't usually cook for lunch I just take food from my housemates (Kapal mukha). Anyway, after that I usually do my laundry then watch my favorite anime. Way back 2013, I do feel watching Arrow series (Stephen Amell) but after I finished watching season 3, I'd stop watching it. I don't know, I just feel like stopping it, then I started watching The Walking Dead and I also stop watching it until now, I started watching bleach (anime series, Ichigo Kurosaki) and still addicted to it until I don't know when hehe!
Because today I feel reall bored without connection I have decided to check if what's my promo for my sim and I avail unlimited Facebook I think. Damn so hard because it was written in Arabic and I was like pressing numbers thinking bahala na si batman and it was a success. So this friend of mine message me yesterday and I just read it today, I send my morning greetings and she message back, she's having emergency cases today so the term is she will go to hospital. She told me lets have lunch after work so i told her it's ok, she told me we should go with her Jordanian crush since they are both oncall this day. So. I tol her just message me if you started so I will take my shower then. I took my shower earlier thinking they have started because she never reply to my messages and then she message me after awhile that the Guy cannot come for he has another commitment. So frustration run through her I can feel it. But then I told her that we can have lunch together which I remember that it was the original plan actually.
Until now I'm waiting hahaha.. Anyway, I'm so dead hungry I need good lunch and planning where to go. Hmmmm...
Guys.. How's your weekend? Share it with me guys just by sending it to my email.
Bye!
16 April 2016 by Walph
So how's my weekend so far here in Saudi? Well it's always the usual things... Before I always woke up like 10 am in the morning and never take breakfast but lunch instead, I don't usually cook for lunch I just take food from my housemates (Kapal mukha). Anyway, after that I usually do my laundry then watch my favorite anime. Way back 2013, I do feel watching Arrow series (Stephen Amell) but after I finished watching season 3, I'd stop watching it. I don't know, I just feel like stopping it, then I started watching The Walking Dead and I also stop watching it until now, I started watching bleach (anime series, Ichigo Kurosaki) and still addicted to it until I don't know when hehe!
Because today I feel reall bored without connection I have decided to check if what's my promo for my sim and I avail unlimited Facebook I think. Damn so hard because it was written in Arabic and I was like pressing numbers thinking bahala na si batman and it was a success. So this friend of mine message me yesterday and I just read it today, I send my morning greetings and she message back, she's having emergency cases today so the term is she will go to hospital. She told me lets have lunch after work so i told her it's ok, she told me we should go with her Jordanian crush since they are both oncall this day. So. I tol her just message me if you started so I will take my shower then. I took my shower earlier thinking they have started because she never reply to my messages and then she message me after awhile that the Guy cannot come for he has another commitment. So frustration run through her I can feel it. But then I told her that we can have lunch together which I remember that it was the original plan actually.
Until now I'm waiting hahaha.. Anyway, I'm so dead hungry I need good lunch and planning where to go. Hmmmm...
Guys.. How's your weekend? Share it with me guys just by sending it to my email.
Bye!
16 April 2016 by Walph
THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY
YES it's true that I truly like you, but why I feel like it's more than just like that.
I saw you for the first time and there's nothingness in my mind, it's just a casual greeting from me and you. I never thought of a feeling of liking you would be this much strong. I never cry because of you but I actually feel sad whenever we had our fights and we had our misunderstanding. I asked you for the reason that I wanted to know what's inside your mind but you just gave me a very vague response. Which allows myself to just stay away from you, but there's something in you that I can't figure out, like a magnet that pulling me into you that no matter what I do still I conducted such thinking inside of my mind that's you and always you.
There were never an us cause I think, it's far from possibility and I wasn't expecting anything like that at all. I always planning of staying away from you but you, and it's like I assumed it was just you making way just to reach me.
Yes, it's hurting me somehow cause I don't know what am I to you? You just told me to change for the reason of you don't like me liking you and from now on I promise to myself that I'll stay away from you, no matter what, like what I am before you came, from what I actually am before I met you. We don't have much encounter, I know there's someone that making you happy, they are many and without me you're still happy.
Somehow, I'm thinking maybe you are just using me to feed your loneliness cause you are far from your love one but no, I don't like to apply that such thinking for you just tell me that you trust me more than anyone atleast. You like someone else. That's fine. I like you, not so fine. I want you to go, get away....
ps (we just learned the meaning of this) I don't know, maybe we could be more than friends but that's IMPOSSIBLE, But I am telling you, always take care and... I like you :)
12 APRIL 2016 by Walph
I saw you for the first time and there's nothingness in my mind, it's just a casual greeting from me and you. I never thought of a feeling of liking you would be this much strong. I never cry because of you but I actually feel sad whenever we had our fights and we had our misunderstanding. I asked you for the reason that I wanted to know what's inside your mind but you just gave me a very vague response. Which allows myself to just stay away from you, but there's something in you that I can't figure out, like a magnet that pulling me into you that no matter what I do still I conducted such thinking inside of my mind that's you and always you.
There were never an us cause I think, it's far from possibility and I wasn't expecting anything like that at all. I always planning of staying away from you but you, and it's like I assumed it was just you making way just to reach me.
Yes, it's hurting me somehow cause I don't know what am I to you? You just told me to change for the reason of you don't like me liking you and from now on I promise to myself that I'll stay away from you, no matter what, like what I am before you came, from what I actually am before I met you. We don't have much encounter, I know there's someone that making you happy, they are many and without me you're still happy.
Somehow, I'm thinking maybe you are just using me to feed your loneliness cause you are far from your love one but no, I don't like to apply that such thinking for you just tell me that you trust me more than anyone atleast. You like someone else. That's fine. I like you, not so fine. I want you to go, get away....
ps (we just learned the meaning of this) I don't know, maybe we could be more than friends but that's IMPOSSIBLE, But I am telling you, always take care and... I like you :)
12 APRIL 2016 by Walph
SHORT TIME FEELINGS
You came, I never knew I am going to have a very short roller coaster ride with you...
There always a really big reason, what and why thing happens. Some of them remarks as a lesson and some of them scarred our heart and hurt us every time we remember them. What if? A very short notice have come? Like you just go with the flow and the price it paid was hitting you so badly and you need to undergo in the process of what we called moving on? Very unfair right? Yes! But what can we do?. Whether we like it or not, the thing is we are hurt. Then what if it's very seldom for the person to feel being liked and Appreciated and turned out that those are just for a show just to get you because he/she is damn too bored? and what hurts the most is that it's a very short damn feelings that you starting to grow then you suddenly realize that everything was just a huge lie. Your furious, cause that's not how the way it should be, even me? I will feel the same! And what's more hurting is that, you know somehow you are not the only one, that there's someone you know involved with this kind of love. Well that person really got a nerve to do that. Well let's see, things has been damaged and everything gone wrong absolutely. But the question is? Is it really worth to feel hurt to someone who never even make an effort just to prove he's sincerity? No. What I told you? Don't ever give that person the satisfaction of seeing you loosing yourself.
Because I love you, here are the things you must know when moving on or atleast trying to forget painful events in your life:
Anyway, things maybe awful somehow but everything will be ok.
Just pray, and ask Him for a sign! He will do the rest.
PS: you know who you are, Bibi Girl.
06 April 2016 by Walph
There always a really big reason, what and why thing happens. Some of them remarks as a lesson and some of them scarred our heart and hurt us every time we remember them. What if? A very short notice have come? Like you just go with the flow and the price it paid was hitting you so badly and you need to undergo in the process of what we called moving on? Very unfair right? Yes! But what can we do?. Whether we like it or not, the thing is we are hurt. Then what if it's very seldom for the person to feel being liked and Appreciated and turned out that those are just for a show just to get you because he/she is damn too bored? and what hurts the most is that it's a very short damn feelings that you starting to grow then you suddenly realize that everything was just a huge lie. Your furious, cause that's not how the way it should be, even me? I will feel the same! And what's more hurting is that, you know somehow you are not the only one, that there's someone you know involved with this kind of love. Well that person really got a nerve to do that. Well let's see, things has been damaged and everything gone wrong absolutely. But the question is? Is it really worth to feel hurt to someone who never even make an effort just to prove he's sincerity? No. What I told you? Don't ever give that person the satisfaction of seeing you loosing yourself.
Because I love you, here are the things you must know when moving on or atleast trying to forget painful events in your life:
- Smile. Really! Ignore whatever you see, I know somehow you will get jealous because he's happy? Ignore and smile, you do have your significant others around you. #friends
- Act Accordingly. I know somehow because you want him to feel cold from you or whatever, act as if your nothing but a very important person that he let go.
- Be unique. Every person has its own different scent in life, show him how unique you can be. With or without him.
- Be open minded. Cause in this thing, you will never ever going to think so hard, or so uptight to yourself, you will just let go things happen the way it should be.
- Don't assume. That because he talk or joke or somehow give you a minute that doesn't mean you will have the feelings again, STOP MO NA YAN.
- STAND WITH CONFIDENCE. yup. Maybe it's hard because you feel low, but this will guide you to a better performance.
- Friends. Keep them with you, but be minded only to those who you trust the most. It's better to have a few BUT REAL! Ganoooon!
Anyway, things maybe awful somehow but everything will be ok.
Just pray, and ask Him for a sign! He will do the rest.
PS: you know who you are, Bibi Girl.
06 April 2016 by Walph